Dreams...

*NOW PLAYING:*
Song: I Still Have A Dream
Artist: Michael W. Smith
Album: This Is Your Time
Quote: "For He knows the plans He has for you. A plan to prosper and not harm you. To give you a future and a hope"
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It's been a busy busy BUSY week... a week where seemingly everything was due and little sleep was accomplished... and much coffee was consumed. Now, after Monday's presentation, it should die down for a bit before finals. Heheh, hopefully. But yeah, it's been crazy...

Today, my church's university fellowship had our first meeting with Paul Racine on campus. Was a good session where he just asked us though-provoking questions and we were encouraged to share. Only a few of us made it, but I was glad they were there... hopefully, the others will make it too in our new time slot. Paul spoke of dreams... specifically, the dreams Joseph had and the reasons behind them... that they had a purpose and were placed there by God. Then Paul popped the question: is what you're doing now your dream? ...and to a lesser degree: does God give you dreams? Oddly enough, while others took a while to ponder (or stay silent), the answers quickly came to my head. "No" and "Yes". In school, I still feel like I'm going through the motions, doing what every good student my age should do... strive for an education and then a job. While switching to the Management department has been much better than when I was taking EE, I'm still not sure if this is what I'm meant to do for the rest of my life... or if it's what I'm good at (my marks certain don't reflect it). But when Paul popped the question if God has placed dreams in my head, it didn't even take a second for me to respond in my mind... "to be a worship leader in front of thousands of people and impact them in a positive way"... whether it's a boyish dream or not, that image of a crowd so engrossed in worship and me leading them (with others, of course) has always been a daydream I've returned to every time I listen to music on the bus, at home, or watch worship videos and watch 7:22. Is it a calling? I think it probably is... but is it feasible? I personally don't think I'm talented enough to do such a thing (being very realistic here)... but why would God place the dreams and ambitions in my head if it wasn't for a purpose. Paul spoke of how we often fall into the rut of routines and schedules and that we've lost the will to dream, a gift that God has given us. As I walk around campus and observe people, I wonder how many of them are living their dream and how many are just going through the motions just like me? How many aspire to be so much more and yet are afraid to take the risk and take that extra step to really make it happen? There are many things I want to do and if it weren't for school or the "worldy logical reasons" such as money and time and responsibilities, I would love to really pour my heart out into them.... worship leading, music writing, and definitely short-term missions trip. I know we should never stop dreaming big because God dreamt big when he created us and created the universe... I know I'm just ranting right now, but for anyone who's reading this, I just thought I'd share what Paul Racine made me think about today and perhaps you could apply that same question to your life... Are you living God's dream?... or are you just going through the motions that the world tells you are the proper things to do right now. Hrm....something to ponder... and something I'll definitely think about for a while. Paul recommended us to read Joseph's story... something I hope to do during the week. Heheh...wonder what challenging question he'll pose us at our next meeting? :)